...and NO MILK. OK--like a half ounce each time I pump--which feels like all the $^%&*#--ing time.
I guess pain interferes with milk production.
Oh--and NO SLEEP. Not because BABY won't sleep. HE DOES. For FIVE HOUR STRETCHES. Because mommy sweats like a prize-winning HOG at the North Carolina State Fair. Yeah. Every hour, like clock-work. Did you know, night sweats feel like a FREIGHT TRAIN roaring through your body? It's very disorienting---especially if you WERE asleep.
So--yeah. We are going on 14 days of continuous, intense, acute pain like I have never known. All apparently very NORMAL.
&*()$# THAT!
Seriously, I boast about completing sprint-distance triathons, and running half-marathons--nary shedding ONE tear, EVER, mind you. And come on--LABOR was EASY (ok, manageable...) for me. WHAT THE $#%^&?
Those of you who know me well, know that I don't swear a lot. But--this is like nothing I've ever experienced, and it feels UNENDING. So--I feel justified. I didn't prepare for this!
Isaac is an angel baby. Yes, like, feed him, burp him, change him and he sleeps for 3 hours during the day and 4 - 5 at night. Take him anywhere, and he is pleasant and chipper if he is awake, and generally--he isn't. THANK GOD.
We all think he's advanced. He holds up his head, he rolls over, and he will stick out his tongue if you stick yours out. He's gained what feels like a whole pound since last Tuesday. (This could all be random...?)
MAN--It's a GOOD THING. Otherwise, I would go completely wacko.
Oh---and THANK GOD for my mom--who can hold him, feed him, burp him, and just be there so I can take a shower and go to the (OK--TMI)
Oh--did I mention, I cook, I clean, and I walk dogs and run the house as if none of this is going on? So--everyone is fine---EXCEPT ME. :( :( :(.
Whining, and crying--why didn't anyone else tell me about this? Is it because no one else I know experienced any of it? Can I just check myself back in to the post-partum wing...!? Please?
$%^&*() :(. Ciao for now.
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Oh Tara!!!! I am so sorry that you are suffering like this! It really does suck... you are justified in your frustration. Make sure you talk to your doctor about how you're feeling emotionally, too. Hang in there! I'm so glad that Isaac is angelic! We'll be praying for you.
I know all these feelings all too well....it is so hard, and the sweating! Agh, I remember. As for the pain, that really needs to be addressed. I think at this point, too, that you could take a Tylenol PM or something. Can you get some help with the house cleaning or care for your mom? MONEY WELL SPENT. I'm so glad that Isaac is doing so well - but Mom has to do well, too!! Take care of yourself, no matter what. I was a martyr and it did no one any favors.
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